lately

We never got our day off. This assignment has turned out to be extraordinarily time consuming, despite being worth so much less than the thesis he could/should be spending this time working on. I cannot wait for Honours to be over. I cannot wait to have uninterrupted hours with my beautiful boyfriend and his unburdened mind. His mind is presently full of words I do not understand and a great deal of stress. He's been writing on my computer, which is partially why I haven't been able to post lately. His was in an accident involving a bottle of vodka. I may be at fault for that one.

I'm looking for new work. I'm done being a bartender, it does not suit me to work late hours or put myself in the presence of loud, busy places like that. Sometimes, I think, you need to work with yourself and your strengths, rather than attempting to force yourself to adapt. I don't want to do this forever and I've never been a fan of these environments. I've been having mild panic attacks every time I have a night shift for a few weeks now. This is nothing new, I just thought I'd be able to cope with the place now that it's under the management of someone I like and respect and who is understanding of that part of me.

I've been listening to Allen Ginsberg reading Howl and drinking Gorgeous Geisha. Tom always crosses out Geisha and replaces it with Georgia. It's become a sweet little tradition every time we get a box, so unlike the rest of our loose leaf teas, I don't like to transfer it to a jar. I'm about to start reading The Happiness Project, since everyone seems to be raving about it.